Time To Get My Shit Together


Time for yet more honesty and opening up from this chick. Things are still pretty tough right now. I’m still struggling with uni, social situations are still tricky and there are still days where I can’t even get out of bed. But I can see improvements. I’m only having to apply for an extended deadline for one essay. I just got a first on a presentation in class. I’ve been out with friends a lot more. I just went away for the weekend to Bristol for a meetup. I am trying and it is working. I’m an impatient person and I wanted things to be better just like that but the realist in me knows that’s not how things work. There’s no magic wand that can fix my mental health. But there is medication, therapy, friends, family, eating well, positive thoughts and actions. I might never be free of this but a mixture of those things sure will help.


It’s coming up to summer break now and I want to work on making more positive life changes so that third year will be the best yet. I’m a typical Virgo so I love making lists so here’s a list of things I want to do over the summer that I think will vastly improve my state of mind:

❤ Read at least 3 books– I have been having massive problems with concentration lately and I used to be such a book worm so I think working on getting back into reading will really help this.

❤ Have the house tidy AF– My part of the house is embarrassingly messy. I put this down to my depression and my general messy habits. But enough is enough. I am fed up of this and I am going to make this place organised and spotless!

❤ Sort out my clothes– My style has taken a bit of a U-turn lately and I have brought a lot of clothes to go with that… most of which are living in a suitcase cause my wardrobe is full. I need to let go of things that don’t fit and things that don’t make me feel fabulous as hell.

❤ Get back into blogging– Hey I’m making a good start on this already! I’m not going to set myself any massive goals but if I’m blogging at least once a week I will be happy. I have a whole list of things I want to write about so hopefully that will keep me going.

❤ Sort out my sleeping pattern– because going to bed at 3am every night really fucks with my head.

❤ Practice my spirituality more– I have a new, beautiful pack of oracle cards I brought over a month ago that I still haven’t touched. I need to get back in touch with the earth and my soul.

❤ Stop biting my nails– I did achieve this goal for a while, then things got stressful again. I want to get to a point where my nails are so nice I wouldn’t even dream of ruining them.


So there we go. This summer I’m gonna get my shit together. I’m not saying I’m going to be all better and hunky dory but I am determined to get myself in a better head space than the one I’m in now.

Thank you for bearing with me!




Time For Change

Time for the truth. Since starting uni back in 2013 I have put on rather a lot of weight. This wouldn’t really be a problem if it wasn’t for the fact that now most of my beautiful summer dresses don’t fit. I love my dresses. I built up an enviable collection while working in a lovely shop which sold Emily and Finn dresses. They make me feel so pretty and happy and well, like myself so the not fitting is a bit of a big deal. So it’s time to make a change!

I have a pretty big goal- I want to loose 3 stone. That may seem like a lot but if I loose that then I will be back to the weight I was before I started uni. Time for more honesty- I’m shit at diets. If I tell myself “no, you can’t have that” then you can guarantee that’s all I’m going to want to eat. So I’m not going on a diet in the traditional sense, I’m just going to eat what I like just in smaller portions and a lot less of my one true food evil- cheese! I’m also going to make an effort to eat more fruit and veg because they are super yummy, a great snack to fill a gap and healthy.

On top of the better eating I’m actually going to move my arse and get exercising. I stumbled upon the Couch to 5k plan on the NHS website and knew it was for me. In an ideal world I would hire a personal trainer to kick me into shape. I need someone motivating every step of the way so the way the plan works is perfect. Each week you download a podcast to listen to while you run. The podcast guides you through a running work out with sections of walking and sections of running. The aim is to run 3 times a week.  Each week you run for longer amounts of time until eventually you can run 5k non-stop. So far I’ve run twice and I can already feel it getting easier. I’m so excited to progress through the weeks and I will keep you up to date as to how it’s going. I also went for a swim today for the first time in ages. I’d forgotten just how fun it is!

So that’s my aim! I thought if I shared it with you guys on here then I would have some added motivation. Hopefully I will manage to get to my goal weight by the week of Download Festival in mid June. Wish me luck!


Promises To Myself

Hello 2015! I can’t believe it is already the new year. I hope you all had an great start to the year, I know I did. I thought I would kick this blogging year off with my kind of new years resolutions. I say “kind of” because people rarely keep new years resolutions. These are more promises to myself. I really want to do these things because I know they will improve my life and my happiness.

1- I promise not to speak or think badly of my body.

I am guilty of preaching radical self love but not always doing a great job of practising it. I say and think so many negative things about my body on a regular basis and it needs to stop. It just makes me feel terrible and there’s no need for it. It is my vessel and it has done me pretty well so far. I carries me from A to B, deals with all the clumsy bumps and bruises I always get and is damn strong! It’s squishy and soft making it perfect for cuddles and keeping warm and I need to appreciate it more. This leads me on to my next promise.

2- I promise to look after myself better. 

Part of loving myself and my body involves looking after it properly. I want to keep up a good skincare routine this year. No more falling asleep with all my make up on, naughty Emma! Taking long showers then covering myself in lovely body butters makes me feel so good and helps me keep in touch with my body. I also want to get back into exercising. I used to love jogging by the river and now I live near Swanpool I can jog by the beach which would be lovely. I really need to get my sleeping back into a good pattern. I go to sleep super late then waste half the day in bed. I will never be a morning person but I could be much better if I really tried.

3- I promise to blog at least 3 times a week.

So far this year I know that hasn’t exactly gone to plan and I may have to put this one on hold for a week until uni deadlines are out of the way. But I am going to set myself the target of blogging 3 times a week. One of those posts will be “Things I Love Thursday” which I do almost every week now so I think this promise is totally doable.

4- I promise to read at least 12 books.

By books I mean non-uni books. I know 12 isn’t that many but when you are an English student it can be hard to find time to read books for pleasure. I used to be such a bookworm and I really want to actively make the time to read because it makes me happy! It shows that long it’s been since I read anything- I brought that copy of Alice in Wonderland this time last year, still haven’t read it! This will be the year I get back into reading.

5- I promise to keep myself organised.

I always start the year with good intentions. I buy a shiny new calendar and organiser and for the first few weeks actually use them and it’s all great… but then it slides. This year I have treated myself to a few bits from The Terrific Project store and they are just so pretty! I am hoping there colourful adorableness will inspire me to use them and keep myself organised! I still need to put the calendar up (I will do it straight after I post this) but I have already been putting my desk pad to good use.

So here’s to a positive, organised year full of books! I would love to hear some of your new years promises/resolutions so feel free to share them in the comments.