Fuck Flattering

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Hi, my names Emma and I really don’t give a fuck anymore about anyone’s opinions on my body or the way I dress. I spent years of my life lusting over sexy body-con dresses, sultry pencil skirts and summer crop tops. I sometimes tried them on but took one look in the mirror and ripped them straight back off again (carefully of course, I mean I’m not into destroying shop property). Even though I really liked the clothes and often loved how they made me feel I looked in the mirror and all I could see was my lumps and bumps. Those lumps and bumps that I had been told consistently though my life to hide away by the media. Being curvy was fine, as long as you knew how to dress your body aka as long as you knew how to cover up the parts of you that were offensive to western beauty ideals. But then this dress came along…

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I was out shopping for new clothes to take with my to Download festival and I came across this dress in NewLook. There was pretty much nothing else I liked in the shop so I decided to take a chance and try it on. I was anxious- bodycon and stripes! Two of the things curvy girls are told to avoid like the plague. But I tried it on and I liked it. Actually I loved it. It was super comfy, I knew it wouldn’t fly up on the wind and most importantly I loved how my body looked in it. I stepped out into the corridor of the changing room so I could get a better look in the bigger mirror. For some unknown reason I asked another woman who just so happened to be in the changing room at the time what she thought of the dress and then came the dreaded words “I do like it but I honestly don’t think it’s very flattering on you”. I know the lady didn’t mean any harm and I did ask for her opinion but it still stung. Luckily I acted against what she said and went for it, I brought the goddamn dress and wore it to Download and felt bloody amazing.

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And so my love affair with clingy clothes and my lumpy body began. I wear what I want when I want. I’m done with asking other peoples opinions. If I like it then that’s all that matters. Fuck flattering, fuck size appropriate, fuck too revealing, fuck too short, fuck too busy. And I never ever bother with shape wear. If you want to wear it then cool, you do you, but I am so fed up of this idea that we need to smooth out our lumps and bumps to be entitled to wear form fitting clothes. I’m done hiding my shape and I’m done caring what flatters it. As long as I’m comfortable and happy then that’s what matters. Who’s with me?!

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Toodles!

Things I Love Thursday

❤ Seeing my fabulous family and celebrating my Mum’s birthday. It was nice to treat her and see her smiley.

❤ Going into a charity shop and realising that the brand new, rainbow coloured dress I fell in love with two weeks ago was still there. I caved and tried it on and it fit perfectly. Then to top the whole thing off Nana paid for it as an Easter Present. So happy!

❤ Celebrating the magic in the world.

❤ My fabulous thigh tattoo. I’m so glad I got it. I’d wanted one for a while but was really paranoid that my thighs were too fat and it would just look silly but hey it looks amazing! It’s also make me love my thighs and is a daily affirmation that reminds me to love myself no matter what.

❤ Going on a unicorn search through town with Oli to cheer me up. I finally found one and she’s perfect. Technically she is a pegacorn because she had wonderful shiny wings. I called her Cupcake Sprinkles because duh! I woke up cuddling her the other morning because you are never too old for cuddly toys. I also love this photo of Cupcake and Oli bonding. Apparently she was watching him play his game.

❤ Chilling with Sam at Gylly beach cafe having a little catch up. This mango, raspberry smoothie and vegan chocolate cupcake were so yummy! Good company and good food always make a winning combo.

❤ Finally sorting through my wardrobe and drawers, boy do I have too many clothes.

❤ Going for a stroll around Argal Lake today with Beth. The weather was glorious and we saw so many cute dogs.

❤ On the subject of cute dogs I love how me and Oli always text each other when we see cute dogs.

❤ I saw a wee little fox out of Nana’s window last night, it was so cute. It had the cutest wiggly walk.

❤ Hanging out with Nana and watching Mama Mia. 

Toodles!

Things I Love Thursday

Sorry I have been neglecting the blog a bit lately, that will change as it’s the Easter holidays as of tomorrow (woo!).

❤ Gold nails and cute kitty nail decals.

❤ The weather starting to get warmer! Hello spring and hello crop tops!

❤ Listening to music as I whiz around on the bus.

❤ Going to the Harry Potter Studio Tour! So much fun!

❤ Taking all the selfies with Sarah in front of Harry Potter bits and bobs.

❤ Butterbeer and chocolate frogs, om nom nom!

❤ Friendship! When we took this selfie in the mirror of erised I thought maybe what our hearts truly desire is friendship.

❤ Taylor being back in Cornwall. So excited to see her on Saturday.

❤ The Tremough Harry Potter Society. Best society ever!

❤ Being body confident and positive and loving it.

❤ Left over curry in pittas, an oddly yummy combo.

❤ Oli sending snapchats of him raving to Shake it off by Taylor Swift.

Toodles.

 

Things I Love Thursday

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve done one of these so be prepared for an overload of gratitude from the time I missed!

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❤ House Christmas! A bit late I know but we had our house Christmas at the end of Janurary. Sonera cooked us a delicious vegan roast and we exchanged presents and watched funny youtube videos late into the night. I don’t say it enough but I freaking love my house mates. A year ago when we decided to live together we made such a great choice. (Polariod photos taken by the wonderful Sherrie on her new camera.)

❤ My amazeballs boyfriend Oli brought me a Download Festival ticket as a super early birthday present. I am so happy, grateful and excited! I’m actually going to get to see Marilyn Manson! June is going to be awesome.

❤ On point outfit colour coordination.

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❤ Tidying my desk and organising some of my nick-nacks. A girl can never have too many glittery skulls.

❤ The sorbet in Zizzs is amazing. I had a scoop of each strawberry, lemon and pomegranate and they were all divine. 10/10, would recommend.

❤ My current favourite cocktail- a passion fruit daiquiri from Shed in Falmouth.

❤ Just the fact that I own a huge ampersand thingy. How random and fun. Also I just have so many odd little bits and bobs that make me smile every time I look at them.

❤ Beautiful packaging. I ordered one of these necklaces (I went for D) from Bonbi Forest and it came wrapped in this intricate origami wonderfulness. It was just so unexpected and special and it really added to the whole buying experience. I love Bonbi Forest and the necklace is perfect, I’ve been wearing it almost every day since it arrived.

❤ Madame Moxie’s Masquerade, what a night! Everyone came dressed in awesome fashions: Victorian, Steampunk, Burlesque, and partied the night away. There was cabaret acts, burlesque dancing and a pirate playing industrial sea shanties on a Victorian hurdy gurdy! It was a bizarre and unforgettable evening.

 

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❤ How beautiful Falmouth is. These were all taken on different days at different times but they are all so beautiful. I love Falmouth so much. Just going on a walk along the seafront on a sunny day makes me feel like I am on holiday. I never want to leave this little haven.

❤ My wee trip to London with Oli to see his Dad and Grandma. You can read more about the trip here.

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❤ Having some major body confidence. My body is awesome and I love it. It gets me from A to B and lets me have load of fun! I can swim, cycle, dance, run, skip- #thisgirlcan! I’m working on making it stronger and healthier but love it now and always will.

❤ Beth and her friend Caitlin coming down from Exeter to visit. We has some lunch in town before heading of on a seaside adventure. The weather was lovely and we ended the day with massive ice creams from Swanpool beach cafe. It was great to meet Caitlin and I’m going up to Exeter to see them and celebrate Beth’s birthday in a few weeks, woo!

❤ Mini shopping sprees. Today I went into town and got a few bits. I went for Barry M nail polishes in Berry and Strawberry along with eye shadows in Copper and Gold. The unicorn stickers were from a local discount store and the other bits and bobs were all from Barnardos charity shop including the flowery top I used as a backdrop. I had a fab day today hanging out in town with some uni friends.

Hows that for a lot of awesome gratitude! Join me next week for even more.

Toodles.

 

 

Promises To Myself

Hello 2015! I can’t believe it is already the new year. I hope you all had an great start to the year, I know I did. I thought I would kick this blogging year off with my kind of new years resolutions. I say “kind of” because people rarely keep new years resolutions. These are more promises to myself. I really want to do these things because I know they will improve my life and my happiness.

1- I promise not to speak or think badly of my body.

I am guilty of preaching radical self love but not always doing a great job of practising it. I say and think so many negative things about my body on a regular basis and it needs to stop. It just makes me feel terrible and there’s no need for it. It is my vessel and it has done me pretty well so far. I carries me from A to B, deals with all the clumsy bumps and bruises I always get and is damn strong! It’s squishy and soft making it perfect for cuddles and keeping warm and I need to appreciate it more. This leads me on to my next promise.

2- I promise to look after myself better. 

Part of loving myself and my body involves looking after it properly. I want to keep up a good skincare routine this year. No more falling asleep with all my make up on, naughty Emma! Taking long showers then covering myself in lovely body butters makes me feel so good and helps me keep in touch with my body. I also want to get back into exercising. I used to love jogging by the river and now I live near Swanpool I can jog by the beach which would be lovely. I really need to get my sleeping back into a good pattern. I go to sleep super late then waste half the day in bed. I will never be a morning person but I could be much better if I really tried.

3- I promise to blog at least 3 times a week.

So far this year I know that hasn’t exactly gone to plan and I may have to put this one on hold for a week until uni deadlines are out of the way. But I am going to set myself the target of blogging 3 times a week. One of those posts will be “Things I Love Thursday” which I do almost every week now so I think this promise is totally doable.

4- I promise to read at least 12 books.

By books I mean non-uni books. I know 12 isn’t that many but when you are an English student it can be hard to find time to read books for pleasure. I used to be such a bookworm and I really want to actively make the time to read because it makes me happy! It shows that long it’s been since I read anything- I brought that copy of Alice in Wonderland this time last year, still haven’t read it! This will be the year I get back into reading.

5- I promise to keep myself organised.

I always start the year with good intentions. I buy a shiny new calendar and organiser and for the first few weeks actually use them and it’s all great… but then it slides. This year I have treated myself to a few bits from The Terrific Project store and they are just so pretty! I am hoping there colourful adorableness will inspire me to use them and keep myself organised! I still need to put the calendar up (I will do it straight after I post this) but I have already been putting my desk pad to good use.

So here’s to a positive, organised year full of books! I would love to hear some of your new years promises/resolutions so feel free to share them in the comments.

Toodles.

Loving Myself

At the beginning of the summer I decided to treat myself by buying Gala Darling’s Radical Self Love Bible School. It’s a wonderful 12 week course that helps you create an art journal bursting with positivity. Each week you get an email with prompts for your bible which you can expand on and play around with however you want. You can also work though the course at your own pace, meaning there’s no pressure.

I have not always loved myself. During the first few months of this year I was pretty harsh on myself. I was not happy on the course I was on, I wasn’t happy with how I was acting, I spent day’s locked in my room alone. I was eating terribly and gained some weight. I wasn’t looking after myself at all. I slowly realised with the help of my family and friends that I could escape this hole of doom I had been slowly sinking into.

I made the decision to change course (which I have written about here) and from that moment on I started climbing out. I knew that moving out of halls would help massively because although I loved my flatmates with all my heart, I had created a room full of negative energy and I needed out. So I decided to sign up for the course at the same time as I moved into my new house. A fresh new start meant I could start loving myself again.

Although I haven’t done as much of my Radical Self Love Bible as I would have liked to by this point I am still happy with it. I have been out have been out having fun with friends a lot, which is an equally positive way to spend my time.

I want to share some of the pages from my bible with you- I hope you enjoy them and they inspire you to get creative and love yourself!

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My cover page. I am so in love with this hot pink glitter glue, I need to get more soon! Pretty much all of my collages are made using pages from Company Magazine.

SONY DSC“I dedicate this book to fun! Life is full of joy, excitement and adventures. Being silly, having a blast and not caring what other people think= rad!!!”

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“Sad to Rad. Things to do to turn that frown upside down: ❤ Bake a microwave mug cake ❤ Go for a walk ❤ Listen to “My Rollercoaster” ❤ Put on a pretty colourful dress ❤ Wear cat ears ❤ Hang out with some ducks ❤ Take a long shower then cover yourself in lovely body butter”

SONY DSCThis page is about my greatest love affair! “Pink! (is my favourite crayon) My love affair with the colour pink started just before prom when I accidentally dyed my hair pink. Turns out I love it pink. Since then I have never looked back. Pink is such a happy, positive colour. It’s passion, love, fun & excitement. I feel like myself with pink hair, my true self. One of my favourite things about pink hair is the reactions people have to it, mainly young children- it brings them so much joy!”

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What style means to me. “Style to me is all about expressing myself. I love to wear 50’s style dresses with odd little touches like cat necklaces and skulls on everything. I love the juxtapositions of my personal style- vintage, feminine, floral dresses contrasted with skulls and tattoos. I love my pink and blue mermaid locks and they never fail to give my confidence. I put no boundaries on myself and dress to make me happy. It’s amazing what a dress and some lippy can do!”

I hope you enjoyed seeing inside my ongoing Radical Self Love Bible. I will update you when I have worked on it a bit more. Shout out to my lovely mum because I used a blanket she crocheted out of my baby clothes as a backdrop for these photos. Here’s a link to her craft blog: Purple Rose Emporium.

Toodles for now!

 

 

Things I love Thursday

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(ootd- Crop top- New Look, Skirt- Top Shop, moonstone necklace- a spiritual fair a few years ago)

Hello wonderful people! Sorry for the lack of content this week! I am working on a blog post about something very important to me but I don’t feel quite ready to share it yet. Here goes:

❤ Wearing crop tops! I always used to feel I was too big to wear crop tops. I am a UK size 12-14, although more of a 14 lately, and I thought that crop tops only looked good on people smaller than I. But one day I came across this Tumblr- Fat babes in crop tops and I was instantly inspired. The site is run by a body positive woman who realised she could wear whatever the hell she wanted. My new summer uniform has become crop tops and high waisted skirts and I feel freaking fabulous!

❤ My lovely new uni bag

❤ Ordering books for uni

❤ Lovely long showers- one of my favourite ways to show myself radical self love

❤ Rupaul’s Drag Race

❤ Signing up for the Glitterati! I am so excited because not only do I get a lovely surprise box full of hair goodies I get an extra special one as it’s my birthday month. It’s my 20th birthday present to myself.

❤ Gala Darling featuring my 5 things I am grateful for today in her things I love Thursday! It’s such an honour because Gala is such a massive inspiration to me- I mean she’s the main reason I keep up my blog and make these gratitude posts.

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❤ Getting super excited for my upcoming tattoos! I will share them both with you when they are done.

❤ The birthday excitement really kicking in as people keep telling me that they have found perfect presents for me.

❤ Cornwall Pride was, as always, fabulous! The day was lovely and sunny, surrounded by friends in Victoria Gardens. Then on to the evening where we watched our friend do an awesome Lady Gaga inspired drag act. His a cappella version of “Born this way” brought a tear to my eye. I had a wonderful day being proud!

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Lemme take a Selfie

Selfies. Love them or hate them they are here to stay. There has now even been a god awful song written about them. Although the song massively offends my ears I can relate to it. My friend and I were out the other night and it came on in the club. We look at each other and laughed at how much the dialogue sounded like us. We take so many selfies in mirrors together when we go out. No toilet stop in wetherspoons is complete without a new photo gracing our Instagram accounts.

tumblr_n4qq7trAse1qliczno1_500Selfies are no new phenomenon however. Although the term was coined in 2002 artists have been painting self portraits throughout history. Frida Kahlo, Vincent Van Gogh, Pablo Picasso, Salvador Dali- they were all at it! Frida Kahlo once said “I paint myself because I am so often alone and because I am the subject I know best”. I find it beautiful that by painting or photographing yourself you are drawing inspiration from inside.

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The first first photographic “selfie” was taken by amateur photographer Robert Cornelius in 1839. Even back then people wanted to preserve their image through their own means. There’s something so strange about looking at a photo of your self. You never look quite how you imagine which can be quite magical but also unsettling.

Some people hate selfies saying they are self indulgent, which is true, they really are. However what’s wrong with a little bit or a whole barrel full of self indulgence? If someone has the confidence to put an image of themselves out there on the internet for everyone to see then they should be applauded not ridiculed. A selfie is true self expression. Not only are you the model, you are also the photographer, creative director, stylist, make-up artist- you are the whole package! Selfies can be an art form if you choose. They can be a visual diary, documenting your daily life. They can tell a story. They are memories. It gives people confidence to be themselves and to love themselves.

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Since getting Instagram in September I have taken more selfies than ever before. Back in college for photography I did a self portraiture project. I found it a real struggle as I was nervous in front of the camera, even if I was the one behind the lens. It’s crazy to feel nervous in front of yourself. In the end I loved those images and they still remain some of my favourite images from my A level work. When I got Instagram I stared seeing selfies more and more. My friends were posting them, my idols were posting them, I couldn’t escape them. It took me a while to embrace them, I posted some but they were few and far between. Then one day I caught myself looking in the mirror and thinking- “I look good, I’m gonna instagram this!”. Now I do this all the time. At first I felt guilty for being so self indulgent and vain. But then it hit me- fuck it! In the words of Ru Paul- “If you don’t love yourself, how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else?”

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I say all hail the selfie! Anything that makes someone feel good about themselves and doesn’t put anyone down is a fabulous thing! I will leave you with this video by Laci Green. She sums up why she loves selfies and thinks they are great for body positivity.