Adventure Is Out There!

I’m back!!! I know, I know; it’s been a bloody long time but I swear I’m back now and a hell of a lot has changed and loads more is on the horizon.

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So what has changed since we last spoke? Well for starters I’ve got a degree now! Well I haven’t actually had my gradation ceremony yet but I got my final grades back. I got a 2:2, ending up with 58% overall. Considering how crappy my mental health has been over these past few years I am amazed I made it through. So woo go me, I’m a Creative Writing graduate from Falmouth University.

While we are on the subject of university I also had a very busy February; I ran in the student union elections. I ran for the position of Community and Welfare President. Although I didn’t win (I came 3rd out of 7), I had the most amazing week. I met so many people and my confidence sky rocketed! It was such a hectic and busy week but I’m so glad I did it, the experience I gained from standing is something I am so grateful for. I also got to spend a lot of time with some of my best friends who helped out on my campaign team, so that’s a bonus. And any job interview I ever go to in the future will be a doddle compared to trying to win over thousands of students!

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Another thing; I’m polyamorous, woo! If you don’t know what polyamory is then here’s a little run down; basically polyamory is the practice of loving/having relationships with more than one person. There are so many different relationship structures that fit into polyamory and every polyamorous relationship is different, so I can only really speak from my experience. I have a boyfriend and a girlfriend who are both dating me, but not dating each other, although they are very good friends. Both relationships are very different and I am so happy with how everything is going. The relationships are also both pretty open meaning we can all have sexual/romantic relationships and experiences outside of the relationship. Communication is key when it comes to polyamory. You need to keep a constant, healthy dialogue going to make sure everyone is comfortable and happy.

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Smaller change but I also shaved half my hair off. It just felt like time for a change, something bold. On Halloween I was out with some friends and I was talking about wanting to change my hair up and one of my friends suggested a Natalie Dormer style situation and boom, a few days later I marched into the hairdressers and got it done. I freaking love my hair like this. I was so worried I was going to regret it but I haven’t so far and it’s been over half a year.

I feel like this hair cut was what triggered all this change in my life. I know that sounds kinda silly but hear me out. This hair cut was such a bold move, something no one saw coming. It gave me some freedom from what was expected of me meaning I could do some soul searching and figure out who I truly was and what I wanted. It made me look at my life and see what changes needed to be made. Since getting this hair cut I have been taking less bullshit and instead living my life how I want.

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So what’s next? For now I’m mainly looking for a job and figuring what my living situation is going to be when my house contract ends in a month. I don’t really have a big grand plan. I thought I would have it all figured out by now, but I really fucking don’t! I’m applying for jobs that look interesting and pay well. After I leave my student house I’m gonna be doing some couch surfing between friends and family. It’s kinda scary not having a plan but I’m choosing to see it as an adventure and I’m sure some great writing inspiration will come from it. I’m feeling very much like the lost 20-something year old I am but it’s pretty exciting. For the first time in my life I don’t know where I’m heading next, I could do anything. It’s a strange mix of fear and wonder.

However now I’m done with uni I have so much free time to write on here. I have so many things I want to write about; bullet journaling, polyamory, surviving uni for example. I also want to document my time as a post-grad, figuring out my place in the world. I know a lot of people write about that but hey, everyone’s story is different. I also still have a bunch of work from my time at uni that I really want to share with you so look out for that.

I know this isn’t the first time I’ve abandoned this blog then come back with a big post but please stick with me! I promise there is much more coming up. I have so much I want to say and hopefully some people out there want to listen to me. I’m going to try to update the blog at least once a week but maybe more.

Thank you for reading this pretty self indulgent post and I hope you are having a fabulous day!

Toodles.

Time For Change

Time for the truth. Since starting uni back in 2013 I have put on rather a lot of weight. This wouldn’t really be a problem if it wasn’t for the fact that now most of my beautiful summer dresses don’t fit. I love my dresses. I built up an enviable collection while working in a lovely shop which sold Emily and Finn dresses. They make me feel so pretty and happy and well, like myself so the not fitting is a bit of a big deal. So it’s time to make a change!

I have a pretty big goal- I want to loose 3 stone. That may seem like a lot but if I loose that then I will be back to the weight I was before I started uni. Time for more honesty- I’m shit at diets. If I tell myself “no, you can’t have that” then you can guarantee that’s all I’m going to want to eat. So I’m not going on a diet in the traditional sense, I’m just going to eat what I like just in smaller portions and a lot less of my one true food evil- cheese! I’m also going to make an effort to eat more fruit and veg because they are super yummy, a great snack to fill a gap and healthy.

On top of the better eating I’m actually going to move my arse and get exercising. I stumbled upon the Couch to 5k plan on the NHS website and knew it was for me. In an ideal world I would hire a personal trainer to kick me into shape. I need someone motivating every step of the way so the way the plan works is perfect. Each week you download a podcast to listen to while you run. The podcast guides you through a running work out with sections of walking and sections of running. The aim is to run 3 times a week.  Each week you run for longer amounts of time until eventually you can run 5k non-stop. So far I’ve run twice and I can already feel it getting easier. I’m so excited to progress through the weeks and I will keep you up to date as to how it’s going. I also went for a swim today for the first time in ages. I’d forgotten just how fun it is!

So that’s my aim! I thought if I shared it with you guys on here then I would have some added motivation. Hopefully I will manage to get to my goal weight by the week of Download Festival in mid June. Wish me luck!

Toodles.

Flash Back

You know how music can take you back to a place or time? This has been happening a lot to me lately and it amazes me how powerful the feelings can be. I was on the bus earlier listening to my ipod and I realised I was smiling; almost laughing with happiness. I was listening to Young Volcanoes by Fall Out Boy. I wasn’t smiling because of the song itself, more what it signified to me, what the whole album signified to me.

This time last year was a massive time of change for me. I was figuring out uni shit, relationship stuff, the shop I worked at closed, my exams were near an end. Everything was up in the air, a real time of self discovery. I had also lost my ipod which may not seem a biggie to you but to me it was massive. I always like to listen to music when on my own in public, it’s kinda my comfort blanket. So I made do with my old, dying phone. It only had enough room for one album. That one album was Save Rock and Roll by Fall Out Boy.  God knows how many times I listened to that album over those few months. It became the sound track to my life. It was what I listened to as I walked home from work on that last day, when I saw Oli after 6 months apart, when I walked to 6th form to sit my final exams.

Over and over again. That album is implanted in my memories forever. Each song brings up a different emotion, a specific moment in the past. My life has changed so much in the past year but every time I listen to those songs I am transported back. Not in a bad way though, it gives me faith seeing how much has changed and how far I have come.

That album will forever hold a place inside my heart.

Are there any songs or albums that take you back in time? I would love to hear about your experiences.

I will leave you with the song that made me smile today on a First bus surrounded my students.