A Salty Kiss

So hey, I got published a little while back which is pretty damn cool. A local publishers (Sea Post Press) run by some students from the English department at my uni decided to put together an anthology of third year work. We were all invited to submit work and I submitted several poems but really didn’t expect anything to come out of it.

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I was so surprised when I flicked open my copy of the finished book and saw my name on the content page! They chose to publish my poem “The Bible Woman”. I wrote this poem back in late 2016 for my writing for a digital age module. It was created by searching the word “woman” in an online copy of the bible and the putting a a list poem together based off of the search results.

I see it as both being a critical look at how women are presented in the bible as well as commentary on how no matter how women act they are always demonised in one way or another. You might take something totally different away from it and that is welcomed. So here is my poem that featured in the third year anthology; A Salty Kiss. 

The Bible Woman

Thou art a virtuous woman.
strange woman
rebellious woman
wise woman
beautiful woman
cursed woman
wicked woman
barren woman
evil woman
whorish woman
foolish woman
gracious woman
fair woman
brawling woman
angry woman
contentious woman
adulterous woman
odious woman
travailing woman
delicate woman
menstruous woman
removed woman
unmarried woman
free woman
what women
certain woman
this woman
every woman
all the woman

So yeah, my first ever published poem. I’m pretty damn proud of myself. I really hope now I’m done with uni I still manage to continue writing poetry and lyrics. I’m going to try, I need to keep  my creative juices flowing.

Toodles.

 

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Adventure Is Out There!

I’m back!!! I know, I know; it’s been a bloody long time but I swear I’m back now and a hell of a lot has changed and loads more is on the horizon.

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So what has changed since we last spoke? Well for starters I’ve got a degree now! Well I haven’t actually had my gradation ceremony yet but I got my final grades back. I got a 2:2, ending up with 58% overall. Considering how crappy my mental health has been over these past few years I am amazed I made it through. So woo go me, I’m a Creative Writing graduate from Falmouth University.

While we are on the subject of university I also had a very busy February; I ran in the student union elections. I ran for the position of Community and Welfare President. Although I didn’t win (I came 3rd out of 7), I had the most amazing week. I met so many people and my confidence sky rocketed! It was such a hectic and busy week but I’m so glad I did it, the experience I gained from standing is something I am so grateful for. I also got to spend a lot of time with some of my best friends who helped out on my campaign team, so that’s a bonus. And any job interview I ever go to in the future will be a doddle compared to trying to win over thousands of students!

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Another thing; I’m polyamorous, woo! If you don’t know what polyamory is then here’s a little run down; basically polyamory is the practice of loving/having relationships with more than one person. There are so many different relationship structures that fit into polyamory and every polyamorous relationship is different, so I can only really speak from my experience. I have a boyfriend and a girlfriend who are both dating me, but not dating each other, although they are very good friends. Both relationships are very different and I am so happy with how everything is going. The relationships are also both pretty open meaning we can all have sexual/romantic relationships and experiences outside of the relationship. Communication is key when it comes to polyamory. You need to keep a constant, healthy dialogue going to make sure everyone is comfortable and happy.

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Smaller change but I also shaved half my hair off. It just felt like time for a change, something bold. On Halloween I was out with some friends and I was talking about wanting to change my hair up and one of my friends suggested a Natalie Dormer style situation and boom, a few days later I marched into the hairdressers and got it done. I freaking love my hair like this. I was so worried I was going to regret it but I haven’t so far and it’s been over half a year.

I feel like this hair cut was what triggered all this change in my life. I know that sounds kinda silly but hear me out. This hair cut was such a bold move, something no one saw coming. It gave me some freedom from what was expected of me meaning I could do some soul searching and figure out who I truly was and what I wanted. It made me look at my life and see what changes needed to be made. Since getting this hair cut I have been taking less bullshit and instead living my life how I want.

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So what’s next? For now I’m mainly looking for a job and figuring what my living situation is going to be when my house contract ends in a month. I don’t really have a big grand plan. I thought I would have it all figured out by now, but I really fucking don’t! I’m applying for jobs that look interesting and pay well. After I leave my student house I’m gonna be doing some couch surfing between friends and family. It’s kinda scary not having a plan but I’m choosing to see it as an adventure and I’m sure some great writing inspiration will come from it. I’m feeling very much like the lost 20-something year old I am but it’s pretty exciting. For the first time in my life I don’t know where I’m heading next, I could do anything. It’s a strange mix of fear and wonder.

However now I’m done with uni I have so much free time to write on here. I have so many things I want to write about; bullet journaling, polyamory, surviving uni for example. I also want to document my time as a post-grad, figuring out my place in the world. I know a lot of people write about that but hey, everyone’s story is different. I also still have a bunch of work from my time at uni that I really want to share with you so look out for that.

I know this isn’t the first time I’ve abandoned this blog then come back with a big post but please stick with me! I promise there is much more coming up. I have so much I want to say and hopefully some people out there want to listen to me. I’m going to try to update the blog at least once a week but maybe more.

Thank you for reading this pretty self indulgent post and I hope you are having a fabulous day!

Toodles.

Things I Love Thursday

❤ Breakfast that looks like dessert!

❤ Fresh cherries. Omg I always forget just how yummy they are!

❤ Second hand book stores. Somehow I had never been into the one in Falmouth but now I have and I want to live in there! It’s a jumbled, higgledy piggledy, mismash of books and I love it! I finally got myself a copy of The Tales of Beedle the Bard but I could have brought so many more!

❤ Green juice especially when drunk on the beach. This one is kale, banana, lemongrass and mango. Om nom nom! I got it from Swanpool Beach Cafe and I can’t wait to pop down for more.

❤ Hell fruits and veggies in general! I have gained a new found love and appreciation of them since going vegan. I crave them now in a way I never did before.

❤ Vintage looks! Loving my new Wonder Woman wired headscarf from Silly Old Seadog and it looks fab paired with my sunglasses I got years ago at Just Like This. Fabulous darling.

❤ My beautiful hometown Falmouth. I am so grateful for how beautiful and vibrant it is. I love going on long walks along the beaches and I never tire of seeing the sea. I still get excited little flutters.

Toodles!

Self Portrait- a poem

Last week in my creative writing class we were asked to write a “self portrait” poem. I really enjoyed writing it, so much so that I was late meeting my Mum because I was on a writing roll. Anyway, I thought I would share it with you all. It may seem a little narcissistic to write a poem about yourself but if you think of it so is a selfie and as I mentioned here they rock! Talking of which time to include a selfie to accompany this poem.

 

 

Self Portrait

She always wakes with messy hair, no matter what. It’s kind of a sign that nothing she can do can make her life tidy, make it make sense. Every brush stroke in the mirror always pulls out hairs. Some fall to the floor. Leaving her mark. You always know if she’s been over, little bright strands marking the carpet. They make him smile, it’s like she never had to leave. Despite this morning chaos she always pulls it out the bag. Ready with a smile and some garish patterns on her back. Gets dressed in the dark, yet somehow it works. Chipped nail-varnish adding to the ensemble. Always in flats never heels. “What if I want to run down a grassy hill?” She always says. You can see her point. Hooking up her skirt, off on a mini adventure. Probably seen a flower again that she simply must instagram. Comes back all muddy, in awe of the natural wonders. A seagull squawks by                                                                                                                                                               Always late, looking like a whirl of colour, never wanting to leave.

 

So there it is, my poetic self portrait. I got some great feedback in class which is always uplifting as well as a little advice which I have acted on and edited the poem slightly. I would love to know what you think so feel free to leave me a comment.

Toodles.

A Poem about Poetry

A few weeks ago in my Creative Writing Strategies class we were asked to write a poem about poems. I thought that was such an awesome idea and I really had some fun with it so I thought I would share it on here. It’s a little bit different but let me know what you think.

 

The Rules of Poetry 

There once was a time
when I thought poems had to rhyme
Organised nice and neat
and always followed some beat

Now I know that’s BULLSHIT

No rules to control these words

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fuck
verse
fuck
rhyme
fuck
structure
fuck
stanzas
fuck
alliteration
fuck
rhythm

Poems can be whatever you want.

Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly.Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly. Give them wings so they can fly.

Poetry can be a comfort or a terrifying jolt.
It can be a warm embrace or the icy sting of loneliness.
It can tell wonderful lies or dangerous truths.
Build walls of protection or break down barriers of pain.
Can meop mean more than poem?
Flip it on it’s head it might make more sense.

Interpret, reread, understand, confusion, analysis, understand, get lost, out loud, to a friend, buy, lend, again and again, hid it away, keep it safe, copy for a lover, write, scribble, words, meaning, create, play, jumble, destroy.

Explaining this is hard
poems escape through fingers
like meaning
and thought.

Poems can be whatever you want.
Sure they can rhyme.
They can be sweet
they can even be “nice”.
But they don’t have to be.
Ignore the rule
they taught you at school.

 

I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it. I think poetry should be free and experimental and I tried to portray that in this poem. I am really getting into poetry and am excited about exploring it more in the future.

Sunday Poetry

Happy Sunday everyone!

As some of you may know, I am studying Creative Writing at university. I thought it was about time I shared some of my work with you all. In class on Friday we were experimenting with poetry. We did a few spontaneous writing exercises where we were all given an arty postcard as a starting point then our lecturer asked questions to move our writing along. It was really new and fun for me. I enjoyed writing quickly, without any time to second guess myself. We wrote two poems and I really liked the first one I wrote so that’s what I am going to be sharing on here today. I edited it very slightly (organising punctuation and structure) but it’s pretty much just what I wrote on the spot in class.

Balloon Battles

Flowing fabric licking thick thighs
the sun beating down
forming midday beads of sweat.
Rainbow carnival colours;
orange, green,
red, blue.
Energy, celebrations,
drinking and dancing.
The drums in the distance
calling the party to arms.
Full-frontal joy
into balloon battles.
A moment of happiness
for what has been given.
Life, that is all.
Birds in shades of ocean
creeping from a tender grasp.
A skull ever present,
life only temporary.
Always there looming
begging the beat on.
The women glancing
toward the bouncing noises
the booms moving them along.
A figure walks in with a flourish
joining the swaying, surging crowd
light is what she brings.
Flowing fabric licking thick thighs.

Poetry is something pretty new to me so I was a little nervous about sharing this. Please let me know what you think in the comments, I would really love some feedback. Hopefully I will have more creative work to share in the future.

Toodles.

 

 

 

 

Introducing Falmouth

I feel a new blog feature coming on! After being inspired by Emily Fisher over at Mermaid Gossip I have decided to start a series of posts about the awesomeness of Falmouth! I will be including my favourite shops, restaurants, bars, places to go, things to do… well anything I love about Falmouth really.

For any of you who don’t know, Falmouth is a town in Cornwall, England. The town has a rich history, Pendennis Castle has been protecting the River Fal since 1545, it still stands today and is amazing to look around. It was not only used in Tudor times but was also a barracks during both world wars.  Falmouth was a packet station from 1688- 1851 meaning mail from around the world came into England though here, so it was pretty important! It is also home to the worlds third largest natural harbour and the UK’s largest ship repairers! Falmouth University helps inject a youthful, artistic vibe to the town. It’s also a godsend for locals like me who don’t want to move far away for University.

I have lived here my whole life and am very proud of my town. It is a truly beautiful place with lots to offer but not enough people know about it. I’m going to try to bring you guys a new post about Falmouth every week, including photos and maybe even mini interviews with shop owners!

I thought I would kick it off with some photos I have taken over the years around the town.

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Now this last shot is a bit of a throw back. I had to include this because it is of my absolute favourite place in Falmouth- Swanpool. I like to come and stand in this spot when I am stressed or upset because something about the calmness of the water just makes everything feel much better. I love hanging out with the ducks too, they make me super happy! You can’t really tell but this was way back when my hair was super short and I lived in my combat boots. DSCF0101

 

I hope you like my photos and are excited for my upcoming Falmouth series! I’m not sure what day of the week they will be going up yet but hopefully I will be able to keep it regular.

Toodles!

Internetty Bits and Bobs

Sorry this is a wee bit late guys! I have been a busy bee so haven’t had a chance to sit down and compile this list. But yay, I now have the time so I hope you find something you enjoy as much as I did.

❤ Spending forever creating the perfect family and house on the Sims used to be one of my favourite ways to waste a day. I dread to think how long this superfan spent recreating these sets from Friends

❤ As you will know by now I am a massive Crown and Glory fan. Earlier this month Rock n Roll Bride once again collaborated with them to bring out the Bridesmaid Collection. There are some lovely pieces in there- my fave has to be either the pink Liberace ears or the Liberace hearts.

❤ Are you in need of a cute animal pick-me-up? If so this link is for you!

❤ I go to the wonderful Falmouth University in Cornwall, England and we had some fabulous news recently- Dawn French is our new chancellor! How freaking awesome is that?!

❤ Space fascinates me so when I saw this nebular bracelet I fell in love.

❤ Who knew Duct Tape could make such beautiful clothes?

❤ I you love Buffy The Vampire Slayer then you will love this.

❤ One of the common things tattooed women hear is “what about when you get married?”, we will look awesome, that’s what! 

❤ I love a good science joke.

Chihuahua+bubbles=adorable! 

❤ Ever wondered what Single Ladies would sound like as a dramatic monologue? Well wonder no more.

❤ One for the Harry Potter fans.

❤ This song speaks to me on a spiritual level.

❤ These guys take popular songs and make them a million times more awesome. This is my particular favourite.

I hope you enjoyed the bits I have rounded up this month. Now to start collecting again…

Toodles.

 

Reflection

1401548467577.1I took this selfie on Saturday- my first day of freedom after finishing my Fashion Marketing course. As I mentioned in this post I am transferring to English with Creative Writing in September. I realised that Fashion Marketing just wasn’t for me and I needed to follow my heart and do what made me happy.

I thought I would write a post looking back over my first year of uni. Although it was very tough at times and I had my moments where I felt like giving up I made it. I also had some amazing experiences and met some awesome people and I feel I need to appreciate those things more.

Tremough Quidditch Society has been a big part of my first year experience. This society is filled with the most fun, awesome and weirdest people you will ever meet. Every event I have been to has been an absolute blast! The committee is so dedicated to giving the society members the best expedience possible. I mean at our first proper event each and every one of the 100 or so members of the society were sorted into one of the Hogwarts houses! That’s a lot of sorting! We had other great events including potions class (aka cockails!), the yule ball and a massive end of year feast. I met some of wonderful people through this society including two of the people I am living with next year- Lowri and Sonera.

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The best part of this year for me has definitely been meeting wonderful people. When I first moved to campus I had to live in a shared room, not ideal. Basically at the start of the year they had too many applicants for rooms so we had to make do. My room mate was lovely, as were my flat mates, but I craved space! I had been sharing a room with my sister for years and really wanted my own space where I could just be me and live to my own crazy schedule with no interruptions!

Luckily for me after living there for 2 weeks I got an email from the accommodation team saying there were lots of single rooms available now so I could move! Yay! Although then I went into panic mode- moving again, into a flat with new people who had been getting to know each other for two weeks. Then came the light bulb moment- I remembered that my friend Sarah from Fashion Design had a spare room in her flat. So that’s how I came to be living with the fabulous O2 crew! Sarah, the Emilys, Simon, Victoria and Edmund welcomed me with open arms and I have never looked back. They are all so lovely, weird and hilarious! I am really going to miss living with them next year. From Emily B’s procrasta-baking to Edmund cooking up Chinese treats there was always someone in the kitchen to have a chat with. I really got lucky when I moved.

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My course itself didn’t work out for me, I just wasn’t enjoying what we were doing. However through it I met some fab friends, although mainly on the Fashion Design course, not my own. The surfing trip at the start of the year really brought people together. I joined some of the non-surfers snuggled up on the deck, hiding from the freezing Cornish weather. Sheena, Levi, Rebecca and I talked fashion and funny stories over an issue of Vogue. We were later joined by Sarah (the wonderful person with the spare room) who had unfortunately stepped on a weaver fish. Remembering running around on that beach in the icey winds with Sheena and Levi will always make me laugh.

My course mates have been a wonderful bunch of girls, yep all girls. Apart from our Tutor Olie, the course is made up on 14 girls all in one pretty small room! There was always laughter coming from the Fashion Marketing suite. Although I wasn’t very close to any of them I really will miss seeing them every day. I hope they all do well and it will be interesting to see how the next 3 years pans out for them.

There has been loads of fun moments throughout the year- most of them have been outside of the classroom. The Pirate Party when I realised I love rum, The Freshers Ball with the rad VW camper van bar, the Halloween Party with creative costumes galore and The Snow Ball with crazy toxic snow, crackers flying everywhere and Santa hats for everybody!

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The main thing I have gained from my first year of Uni has been a new found independence and self confidence. I found the confidence to admit that I wasn’t happy and I had the power to change that. I am making a big life change and I couldn’t be happier. Although my first year wasn’t all sunshine and daisies I have no regrets. I have had some experiences that will stay with me forever and have met some kick ass people who I hope will become life long friends.

Here’s to next year!

Things I love Thursday (on a Friday… oops!)

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❤ Helping out with the Falmouth University graduate fashion show on Wednesday. It was a really long day, I was on my feet, running up and down stairs for the best part of 12 hours but it was worth it! I was particularly excited to get an official yellow attendants T-shirt- made me feel like I had some power, tee hee. The show was held in a multi storey car park… so strange but it gave the show a real edge. It was great seeing everyone pull together to create something wonderful! Congratulations to all the graduates, you are amazing! (Surf Girl Magazine has some great shots and a wee video from the show as does this blog, check them out!)

❤ Due to a pricing error getting £4 body butter for 40p!

❤ Wearing my pretty new dresses

❤ Relaxing with a few ciders with Oli at Adrian’s

❤ The cookie crumble mocha frapachino at Starbucks! Sooooo yummy!

❤ Starting and finishing my Mary Quant and Barbara Hulanicki essay

❤ Wearing my hair in plaits

❤ Planning trips with my boo

❤ Talking to every cat I pass (crazy cat lady life here I come)

❤ Square jars

❤ My pentagram ring, I’ve had it for ages but recently fell back in love with it

❤ Bad Neighbours, such a funny film. Me and Oli went to see it last Saturday- would totally recommend!

❤ Feeling like a kid when buying big cups of pick ‘n’ mix